hi

First time with a computer since this last 3rd of june, time when i fled ùy home with a bag and my son under my arm.

Gabriel has been attacked by JF( JF being the man who is legall his father but not biologically).

These past two months have put us through hell, because of police procedures, because of being put into a women and kid stately house for gaby's security, hell because my two and a half year old son has been going through things that make me want to kill, because the legal case was abandonned by prosecution ( not enough physical damage sic.), because on the 25th of semptember, i am having another fight as JF is asking for gaby's full custody on the grounds that i may be out of my mind ( and this because my two year old son told me things had been done to him), bla bla bla..

Can't talk too much on here, walls have ears.

I am now in a creepy hotel, with a very small room, but i have my computer with me and free WIFI.

Thanks seven, i know how you feel.

Brian, i am fine.
I wish i could say this about gabriel, he goes from being violent with phases of no sleep and food deprivation to being a normal two and a half year old ( annoying as shit this means, but healthy lol).
He talks non stop about what's been done to him and he has tsarted to see a specialist, problem is, the specialist is on holidays.
Almost all my furniture is safe as it was transported into storage.

I have very little money, the hotel room is paid by the children's social services until the 1st of september.

Just for the girls, HTGTH has a Dave Navarro clone, sex on legs :

Sin Cut

Opening Credits:
T- Rex - Children of the revolution

Waking Up:
Haendel - Saraband

First Day At School:
Little shop of horrors

Falling In Love:
Don't stop me now- Queen

Fight Song:
Star Wars opening

Breaking Up:
Roxette - A thing about you/ Abba - one of us is crying

Prom:
Can't relate, no proms in france

Life's OK:
Butterfly Ball, Roger Glover.

Mental Breakdown:
Civil War. GNR

Driving:
No Milk today - Herman's hermits

Flashback:
Karma Killer - Robbie Williams

Getting Back Together:
Richard Marx - Right here waiting for you

Birth of Child:
Lea Salonga/ Miss Saigon - I'd give my life for you

Opium Of The People:
Riders of the storm - the doors

Wedding:
Everly brothers - devoted to you

Final Battle:
Get up, Stand up - Bob Marley

Death Scene:
The end - the doors

Funeral Song:
Walking in the air/ Aled Jones - the snowman

End Credits:
Chi Mi Morbeannah

Men ( so i have been told a few days ago) are attracted by confident women, therefore, if you smell lonely, you shout " desperate" and they will avoid you.

Mind this, i don't know what's worst, not finding sex or feeling rejected when you love.

I think your situation is better really, slow down, breathe, don't offer your body to just any stupid arse.

You're worth more than this.

I know we all have needs..

Personally, i haven't had sex in a LONG time and i haven't had proper " love making" in quite a few years ( like..3 and a half years ?) ..

But then, as intimate as these infos can be, they are told just to say that although sometimes needs can make you want to bang your head on a wall, they are not everything.

Wow, what a question : does therapy work ?

It depends on individuals.

I could only reply to you talking for my own self and the answer would be : i spent half of my life in therapy and no, it did not help me, because i have understood a lot, but it didn't take away the pain and nothing does.

One thing it does though is expand your mind through conscious and unconscious thinking.

So it's probably made Axl richer in human and humanitarian terms.( plus what monkey said)

I think the ONLY therapy, and i've thought this for years now, that achieves anything or almost everything, is LOVE.

Once Axl is finally in love, with the one person who makes him feel what any of us are entitled to feel like ( even more so the resilients), then, a lot can fall into place, professionally too.

But there are chances he only concentrates on his personal life, after waiting so long to feel alive.