I don't listen to them much, because it upsets Gabriel.

Now, i don't know if it's the music that upsets him or the state the music puts me in.

It's always brought out a lot of anger out from me, or sadness and maybe he senses my mood change when i listen to the songs ?

It's a bit better when i put a video on, he watches and comments.

PS : I like the lyrics too, speaks to me

I am in awe with an italian film called " La Scorta", talking of the security that protects judges against the mafia in Italy. Loved it. I must have seen it 15 or 16 years ago now. Very much under rated.

There is also a film whose title i have not been able to find on the net, it's a german movie, black and white, about a man who is disfigured and who falls in love with a blind woman. He is very rich and they fall in love, she can't see how horrible he looks and he eventually pays for her to have an eye operation, she recovers her sight, freaks and leaves him and he kills himself.

I am sorry i haven't responded to your pain before Tom, but in a way, it's brought me back towards my own and i had to take a while washing it off.

I am very sorry for you.

I've lost quite a few people over the years and a lot of family in the recent years, so i understand how painful this must be.

Sailing by Rod Stewart.

I always sat in between two countries.
And for over 20 years, i had to take the ferry to go from one to another.
I'd go out on the deck, and watch the shores of one disappear and cry.
Especially when i lived in london, i was leaving all my friends behind.

So when this song comes on, it reminds me how difficult it is to have a soul somewhat split in the middle of the ocean.
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chi mi morbheanna ( scottish folk song in gaelic)

Again, about leaving.
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Si seulement je pouvais lui manquer by Calogero
( If only he could miss me)

It's in french but here is what it says :

It would only take
A call
A call
Where does my life come from
Not the sky

Tell him about my childhood
His absence
Every day
How to break the silence
About him ?

So true from afar
I talk to him
I learn alone
To fight
So true i don't stop
To think about it
If only
He could miss me

Is he going to be send me a sign
Lacking love
Is not a crime
I have only one prayer for him
If only
He could miss me

If will just tell you
Apart from this
All is well
Apart from a father
I am not missing a thing
I live in another world
I hang on every day
I will break the silence
Around me.

So true from afar
I talk to him
I learn alone
To fight
So true i don't stop
To think about it
If only
He could miss me

Is he going to be send me a sign
Lacking love
Is not a crime
I have only one prayer for him
If only
He could miss me