As we all know, I completely disagree. The way his emotion comes through in his playing is awesome for me.

just woke up and the posts i just read kind of blend together in my head, but i'll try to address what i can remember . . .

there is a difference between being disappointed & blaming me for the disappointment. yes i know there were posts made about all this stuff that was supposedly about to leak, but i had nothing to do with those posts. to many, the multitracks are meaningless. however, a lot of people care about them and i had hundreds of people contact me begging me to get them after felixed starting teasing people.

in the end, he didn't actually have all of them. what you have now is what he had. *i* was very disappointed and that's part of why i released what i had and terminated the project.

had he actually had them all, there were many trades on the table. who knows, maybe eventually somebody will get the rest of the masters and i will get dragged back into this.

as for TWAT, look, i'm not an expert on this stuff. to those that insist it's fan made, their reasoning is how similar it is and the intro seeming pasted.

however, to the actual experts, some of whom have dozens of versions of some of these songs, that version is considered 100% legit and was used to trade for the mogg of prostitute.

so believe what you want. i was not after any alternates, i was after the multitracks, which i hoped to trade for the general, atlas shrugged, or silkworms, and once i had one of those songs i was fairly certain i would end up with all 3 as i knew enough people with them that didn't know each other that i was confident i'd be able to make some trades.

when i was finally told the rest of the multis were not being sent because felixed never had them to begin with, i decided to shift the focus in my life back to my own music. i'm having a launch party at my warehouse this weekend and have been attempting to rehearse a full length set while also working on the GNR stuff, which has meant a couple hours sleep tops if i was lucky and many days with no sleep at all. whether i got 1 multi or 13 in the end, the workload was the same.

as for using the GNR stuff to further my music, it was actually quite the opposite. it was the music that ended up furthering the GNR stuff. i was in full hype mode over in my little world. keep in mind my message board has been around for over ten years in various forms and sadly at times ends up being a lot more active than many of the bigger GNR boards. on the night i was supposed to upload a new song, i got a PM from someone on my board asking me to help with the multitrack stuff and they sent those two oggs to prove they were legit.

it would be unfair to expect me to stop hyping my music just because somebody asked me to also get involved in GNR stuff.

every time i tell myself i'm done, in the end i get brought back into it. so who knows. deep down i know i'll probably be the one to get checkmate, but i think it's going to take a lot of work and sadly a lot of $$$$$$$$$$$$$.

and i'll spend it. and then i'll share. and then i'll still have hundreds of assholes contacting me to let me know how much i suck for only getting one song, (or if it's true that only 2:30 of checkmate is out there) or only a piece of a song, what a let down it is, etc.

and there'll be just as many people singing my praises. that's just how this game goes i guess.

i usually end up in the world of GNR when i desperately need a reason to convince myself that it's worth being alive. as i type this right now, i just don't feel like that anymore. i've got lots of people coming from out of town to see me play this weekend and that is what is getting me out of bed at the moment.

and one day when there is nothing that is able to get me out of bed, i'm sure i'll be back searching for songs.