I don't think he's doing the playing it cool thing, there's no need.  It's not the first time we've spent together but it was the longest.  I'm inclined to think he's detaching due to going away etc.  Which is fair enough, I'd rather get over it now than get too involved and then hear he's been blown to bits.  Plus I've got too many plans myself and falling head over heels for someone wasn't one of them.

But fuck, I just want to know if it was something I did or said.  I really can't think of anything but I'll never know cos I've decided I'm not getting in touch.  Shame though, at the least I feel a good friend has gone.

While I'm whinging in the rant thread about some army bloke not paying me enough attention, he's actually stationed in NI not far from where this happened and got a call when he was with me to say this had happened.  I think I might just shut the fuck up.

I'm actually not really sure.  A guy I've seen a few times stayed the weekend and it was all good and everything.  I've just got a really odd feeling that I did something wrong and I'm not sure what or why I feel like that.  Or why I even care!  I'm not looking for anything long term and neither is he, he's in the army and is going to be deployed to Afghanistan in a couple of months.  He said he'd see me again and he's been in contact since he left but I just feel....odd.

I just feel like I've allowed him to get closer to me than I'd have liked.  I think it might be me I don't understand rather than men!

So this is what you guys talk about when there are no women around!

Prostitute.